I am having a very bad day. Consumed in feelings of jealously and rage. Wondering how the hell I ever got to this place and how I am not on the same page. Twelve years ago drinking and having fun with my friends, no one owned houses then and I forgot it would all end. […]
Ugly polyester blouses and generic black pants, a bit too much shadow around the eye. Some silently judging or others not so silently, clicking their tongues in disapproval. Wishing to be back as the queens of their own classrooms, if they are not going to learn anything they agree with.
Being stuck in a place where I am not satisfied is like always burning a fire, inside your own throat, allowing the ashes to scatter down to your heart. Always constantly comparing yourself to others is like dark poison that you are injecting into your own brain. You are stabbing yourself in the back. You are […]
I’m in the same room as an ex-lover. And I can feel his smooth shoulders, from three tables over pushing down on me. I’m suffocating, I’m back; lost among the crumbled sheets, was it possibly four years ago? I can’t remember anything with clarity, greyness has clouded my vision. I’ve forgotten the colours of black […]
The darkness, sets in much earlier. Making us feel, darker inside, like perhaps there is no hope at all, perhaps we are even capable of evil; as we hole down into our respective homes huddled and shivering under piles of dirty blankets. Wondering if we will ever be able to feel the brilliant sun on […]
My learner, she is writing slowly, improving a bit each week. But not the weather, that’s getting worse. If by worse, you mean colder ( I do). I try to keep a balance, a way to see the good and bad; like my mother says, a side to everything. But then again. my mother was […]
my dog’s tail goes thump, thump, thump. against the wood, making a sound like the very sunbeam she is lying in, shining directly into my heart.